by Maansi Jain
these images are a selection from the series firstaidkit, starring youth in berlin, a “comeback” that will never go away in the sense that every generation has kept up a well tended fascination for youth culture (the whole series is here.) firstaidkit documents a depressive phase in my personal “nachtleben.” i’m borrowing the word as it stands in the title of the book Nachtleben Berlin: 1974 bis heute, which is a book full of images of berlin nightlife from the 70s on and its depiction of ‘youth’ is (un?)surprisingly timeless. when I shot these images, i wasn’t partying a ton, but i was trying to distract myself from being alone again by going to meet acquaintances in various corners of berlin almost every evening. i started walking home pretty often because i didn’t have the patience to wait for trains and buses, which in turn meant two and three hour walks to get back to my apartment. meandering through the streets was super therapeutic and funnily enough, being alone was key. though the photographs i took then weren’t originally intended as a cohesive series, they are the leftover tokens of this time period.